Alright well hi guys. So Ive been going through a bunch of stuff lately but now i just dont think i can handle it. Aside from my home problems Im having school and friend problems. One is from all my friends on sef. I love that place and all the people there but i just cant stand it when people there dont talk to me or include me. The worst thing now is that I cant get on there. I just dont feel like i belong anymore. Then theres my best friend. Her name is Kat and i dunno she sjust done so much for me. Today she said she wanted to stay at louisiana.. I want her happiness completely, but i just dont know. Ever since i left her my grades have dropped WAY low. I used to be an honors student where i could pull off all As. Now I get C-s and Cs. She never realized that she helped me just drawing the focus off myself. I mean like ii dunno. She left and i have no real ACTUAL frieds. I sit at home and cry most of the time not knowing waht to do. I dunno. Im tired. Im going to bed. Kat Im sorry if you read this but youve heard most of it. Im gonna try and sleep thogh. Ill type most later

UPDATE.with nothing to say...Alright well school STILL sucks but im managing to pull up my grades a LITTLE. im in B and C range right now.Very bad for being an honors student. But ill get them up eventually. What im really working on is trying to do better in my sports. Sometimes I just think thats all I was made for. Was to do sports. I don't have many brains but at least I can take it out on the field. I really really want to play field hockey in college. Luckily my school athletic director, and also a good friend of the family, knows I want this and is doing everything she can in the meantime to help me do it. I LOVE THUNDERSTORMS. Its raining again and I LOVE IT! W00T WOOT!!!!!!!!! Totally rocks. Thunder rumbling and roaring. Lightening streaking across the sky. Totally mesmerizing. Its so exciting. I wish life would always be that exciting. Anyways. I've managed to become a total music addict. Like I can't stop listening to music or else i feel weird. AND NOW I REALLY NEED TO GO TO BED. I got sports tomorrow

AND KAT I WILL GET YOU. IM STAYING ON SEF TOO.STOP UPDATING AT SCHOOL

And thanks kathleen. I didn't know you knew my Xanga.